Complication

The thing that i hate about myself.
That no one ever know.
Hard to be honest with someone that i really and care the most.
The more they have high value in my life, the more difficult for to keep honest.
It is not like, the big secret is being kept from them.
It's just the thing that i kept to myself.
And to bring it out openly,
Is not really my thing.
And the result, will be awkwardness.
Why it is so hard for me to say that i do care about them?
Why it is so hard for me to admit that i do love them?
Why i keep running away when i cant contain the annoyed and irritating feeling in myself any longer?
No answer. As its answer is in here. And i cant find it.
I am sorry for everything that happened.