Messed UP

Red means blood, red means rage, 
red means wrath and it even mean revenge,
To me who has been quite for all this time,
Wrath is trying to climb up all the way,
Again.
For this time, the wrath becomes different.
For this time, it become unbearable.
For this time I have to seek another solution.
Another opinion. Others' help.
For me to be able to tame this wrath.
Silence gives me time to think and analyze.
As in silence I found peace.
As in silence I found a way to control me.
Even though, it is controllable,
The wrath inside is still boiling.
Surprisingly.
Up to one point, I tend to give up. 
Give up with the sucked up attitude.
Give up with those overly sensitiveness.
I am done.
For real.