Sanity

Everyday,
I fight with my own self. I struggle for within.
To keep my sanity at bay.
Every minute, I look far in the air.
Looking without projection.
Trapping in the mind of words.

Everyday,
I battle by myself.
Hoping that someone could notice.
Someone that could love me more than my family.
Someone that could give me the love that i need.

Right now,
The best option for me, is seem like disappearing.
Disappear into thin air.
*Kapooff*
People forget you eventually.
Can I just kill myself?

Being alive is what matter the most.
But what make it seems like hell is
Your existence opinion is always being rejected.
Even by your own family.

Can I just kill my mother?
Can I just say to her, "Mom shut the fuck up. Dont think just because you are a mother you always right!!!!"
Can I just yelling at her? Throwing all illogical her argument?

Fine,
in 20 years i want to look at that regret face of yours.
Regret for choosing your love between your son and your daughter.
I hope your so called son rot in hell.